What is your soundtrack?

I just finished watching a series on Netflix named Soundtrack. I’m not even sure I liked it, there were things I liked and things I didn’t, but the end of the last episode spoke to me in such a beautiful way! Sam said something that I always felt deeply but couldn’t put into words before. He talks about how every song is a love song. That every single one is about a form of love somehow. And the thing that resonated deeply with me was: “Each one of us has a soundtrack. It is as idiosyncratic as our fingerprint. It defines who we are, and it tells the story of all we have loved… and lost… and hope to love again.” When I heard that, I immediately recognized the serendipity and asked myself: what is my soundtrack?

I always loved to experience life through music. And I let music speak to me. Music always enhanced my feelings and gave me hope or helped me express and feel my sorrow or pain. No matter what it is I’m feeling, music amplifies it. Or, if I choose to, music can help me change my state. Because of this, most of the important moments in my life, were somehow defined by a song. And when a song comes to me, I listen to it over and over until I truly feel it’s message and how it resonates in my life. And boy, do I feel great while doing that. It simply raises me to the level of bliss on the scale of consciousness.

And I started remembering the songs that spoke to me at one of the most important moments in my life:

• The song that came to me on this New Year’s Eve, my message for 2020, which I listened to for a week on repeat because even though it’s a song about men, my message was more about society and living life on my own terms: You Don’t Own Me – Bette Midler, Goldie Hawn & Diane Keaton
• The song that came to me on the day I left Bucharest to go to London for 1/2 months of time for myself (which turned out to be me moving to London): Start Over – Zac Brown Band
• The song that came to me on the day I signed my divorce papers: Feeling Good – Michael Buble
• The song that came to me on my birthday, the last time I spent it with my ex-husband, in Paris: All This Love – JP Cooper
• The song that came to me when I had to tap into my power and play the role that changed my life in a boot-camp, even though I never acted before (all the experience empowered me like nothing else in my life, and not a soul out for 60 people could break me, even though they did their best): Thunder – Imagine Dragons. Whenever I listen to this song, I immediately tap into my power and know I can do anything I choose to.
• The song that came to me on the day I turned 30. I had just recently started my healing journey and it was the first time in my life when I spent almost all my birthday on my own (and it was a very important one for me): Perfect – Ed Sheeran. It was the first time I ever heard this song and I just felt that it’s a message from myself and it’s about me loving myself.
• The song that came to me in my first boot-camp, when I was finally opening up to letting go of my preconceived notions about how my life should be: Try Everything – Shakira
• The one song that makes my heart sing, carries me like I’m on a magic carpet, raising me higher and higher, until I reach a state of bliss. Nothing makes me feel like this song: Pachelbel’s Canon in D

And of course there are many others. But each of them have a special meaning attached to them and an empowering message. It’s like Life is communicating with me through them, telling me exactly what I need to hear in that moment. This is why I say that this songs came to me, because I never chose to listen to them. They just pop-up by serendipity and tell me exactly what I need to hear in that moment. And then I just listen to them as long as I feel like and connect with that energy and that information. All of them become empowering resources to me and whenever I hear them, I connect with their energy and the energy of those moments in an instant.

And now, after hearing this line in the movie, I was inspired to write about what music means to me and the impact it had in my life. And I just can’t stop thinking about my soundtrack. So I plan on actually creating a playlist called My Soundtrack. And slowly add to it all the songs that spoke to me throughout my life. Hopefully I can arrange them chronologically, I think that would be amazing. 🙂 I’ll see where this will take me and I’m sure it will be a fun and healing experience.

I’ll leave you with the song that was my message for 2020, because it speaks about living life on our terms and being free to do so and to enjoy all of it.

You don’t own me
Don’t try to change me in any way
You don’t own me
Don’t tie me down ’cause I’d never stay

I don’t tell you what to say
I don’t tell you what to do
So just let me be myself
That’s all I ask of you

I’m young and I love to be young
I’m free and I love to be free
To live my life the way I want
To say and do whatever I please

So, what’s on your soundtrack? 😉